Christmas Shoals

Well, the Yuletide is only two weeks away and finally I realize how fragile the order of things are. This week we were finally, officially informed that the company is being sold. For me, this is a double-edged sword. There is a certain relief of knowing that what we all had known at work for months was true and now a certain anxiety knowing that in all likelihood, I would lose my job in X number of months. It now meant that the recent interview I had was not in vain, but now it meant that getting an offer was all the more important as well. There are manifold implications with these developments. It is clear to me now that business that depend on, or are automotive at the base are no longer going to be "employers of choice" and that I could probably count on having a bit of a declining living standard, working harder, perhaps learning more in the long run, but who knows? The notion of security is such an illusion. The only security you have is the very little that you can provide for yourself. I've learned the hard way that my father was right all of these years. Not that I ever really took issue with him or his ways but I haven't been abiding by his teachings regarding credit and money, etc. The older I get, the smarter he becomes. My father died with a total indebtedness to the world of under $60.00, not counting the usual bills one has for light, heat, phone, etc. It was an object lesson in how to manage ones affairs. My goal now, is to make it through Christmas without adding to my small pile of credit card debt. I hope to slay that dragon in the new year, probably before the end of it anyway. Barring any unforeseen events. Need to make myself more marketable, perhaps it's time to learn a new trade as well. I'm still in my early forties and all I've ever really done since for the last twenty years is computer related work.

It's scary out there now.